Friday, May 05, 2006

It's kind of weird to attempt to type in proper english while i have chinese songs playing non-stop on my playlist. Am kind of guilty to have put this language aside for so long, despite being proud of my own linguistic ability; it's one of the very few stuff that i can be proud of anyway. Recently, I have been overwhelmed by the many opinions that people have of the upcoming elections. Maybe by doing this, they can have an illusion that they, despite being vastly under-exposed to political situaions(Watching the campaign report on the tv does not count), do possess some sparks of brilliance coupled with some analytical skills. Instead of engaging in coffeeshop talk, wouldn't it be more productive if they have spent their time drawing out some blueprint which can be beneficial to their community? Maybe this is as far as it goes given their level of intellect...

Watched a lame show during guard duty on Monday, and the female lead was telling the male lead, " To forget your first kiss, just have the second and third one with some other girl." Though this may not be entirely true, it did make me think. What's about mental scars and sweet memories that can affect people for a prolonged period of time? Your dick won't leave a signature on a girl even after you've screwed her a kazillion times. Like how the molesters' palm prints won't stay on your tits forever. All it takes is just a change in mind-set, and people will get over such grievances in no time. Appreciate the under-lying meaning of every significant event that, and forget the moment. I do remember that I have done some significant stuff, but can no longer conceive that I have actually been through them- that they were once a moment in my life. It may be great to indulge yourself in the sheer magnitude of pleasure that the recounting of such events brings you. They may be what shaped you now, but should not be what that hogs your life such that the current you is prevented from accomplishing future benchmarks in life. Be grateful for who you are and set your sight towards the future; surreality will creep into your mind and devour your most vivid memories in time to come. Why fall in love with someone in your past when you should appreciate her in this particular second? Of course, what i have said do not apply in all situations, so don't take it as me acting as an arrogant bastard. I'm only abit of both. :)

I do realise that I am not myself when I make effort to type a thoughtful entry. At this point ppl may get confused and question their own 'real' identity. To me, I am just someone whom I am not a few minutes, and it doesnt trouble me at all.

I'm already starting to wonder why the fuck did I type the above junk. Is everyone else as fickle as me?


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